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How can I exist with so much inside my head?

I know I want to write.  Fuck...it is so hard to write.  I have so many thoughts inside my head.  I am so tired and yet so awake.  I want to do so much and so little.  I want to be alone and surrounded by people.  I want to wash the dogs, clean my entire house, organize my new room, write poetry, write prose, write about my life experiences, do laundry, run 3 miles, dance, and now cut myself.  How can one person exist with all of this inside their head?  How can I survive with all of this inside my head.  I want relief. 

At first, I was enjoying this ride, but now I want off.  What does it take to get off this ride?  Have I always existed like this?  How have I always existed like this?  Can I just have one thought?  One task?  I'm sleepy and do not want to sleep.  Someone please help me

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