I think I had a psychotic episode the other night. I definitely had a mixed episode or possibly extreme rapid cycling. I've been reluctant to try and fix my head until that moment. The worst part about it was that I had experienced parts of it before. It was that remembered experience that let me know just how bad things are and how bad things can get. I don't want to go back to that place. The only positive I can say for it, is that I am relieved to know that when I quit life previously I really was having severe mental problems. Now I know just how severe. So, what happened? I will do my best to describe it, but in writing I can never capture the true feeling. Things were going well, better than they had in a long time. Ben and I were in the kitchen talking and joking around. Then a message came across my screen and Ben got annoyed/dejected. He said he just needed a minute. His request was normal; my reaction wa...
This blog has evolved over a long period of time. I have decided to use it as a way to try and raise awareness about mental health. As this blog continues more of the posts will center around mental health and breaking the stigma associated with it. Some of the earlier posts are my own struggle with Bipolar Disorder, but I have decided to leave them. They are strange to say the least.