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Am I really 31?!

I had clear intentions for this post, but first I'm going to have a ramble session.  I was reading my bio and realized it said I had recently turned 30, and then I realized this blog was a bit on the older side.  Which led me to realize that I'm actually 31.  I had to get out a calculator and subtract my birth year from the current year to fully realize this.  I've been telling everyone I'm 30 and I think I've put that on a few important applications.  I honestly thought I was still 30.  Does this happen to everyone as you get older?  Do you just randomly forget how old you are?  What a strange thing...

Today marks day four of my vacation.  I have had lots of time to rest and think.  I typed something for myself yesterday that really resonated with me.  I hope it marks a shift in my attitudes and perspective.  "I want to work out because I love my body, not because I hate it."  I hope I can make this true.  Along with this, I opened Pinterest this morning and my home page was filled with work outs about losing weight, slimming down, toning, loses stubborn <insert body part here> fat.  This prompted me to post a Facebook rant.  I get so sick of it.  Why is always about taking something away?  I want to exercise to add something to my life and to myself! 

All in relation to this, I've been very depressed lately.  When I'm depressed I tend to let all the things in my life that I value just slip away.  I don't know if I get depressed and then let things fall away or if I let things fall away and then get depressed.  I do know many things play into it.  There is a lot of low energy associated with it.  This contributes to the things of value falling away.  I'm too tired and don't have the energy to do the things I care about.  I mention all of this to say, that I want to change some things in my life.  One of the things I took away from Acceptance Commitment Therapy is the identify the things your life that have value and then commit to those things and have actions for those things regardless of how you feel at the time. 

I'm not going to go into those things in this post.  I will do some work on them and get back to you on how it went.

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