Muscles, Mimosas, and Misery

I've decided to try my own little experiment.  I signed up for weight watchers about 3 weeks ago.  I lost 2 pounds the first week and have slowly gained a little back each week.  I dug into the program a little more and this is what I found: If I eat only my daily points plus I am coming in under 1200 calories.  This is medically unhealthy.  When I mentioned this to one of the weight watchers coaches, their response was, "We track points not calories"  Well yes, this is correct, but it doesn't change the fact that you are recommending for people to eat below their medically healthy calories.  For the next week I am planning on tracking both weight watchers and Lose It!  As of now, my 500 calorie breakfast consumed nearly half of my points plus values.  It was not an unhealthy breakfast.  I had turkey bacon, 3 eggs, spinach, an English muffin, and cranberry relish.  I feel satisfied and full.  Weight watchers would recommend I...

I hit a low point this month.  I'm not sure what triggered it, but I had a depression surge.  In the past I have struggled with depression, but it has been a few years since I've had a bad bout of it.  The last therapist I went to helped tremendously and I learned fantastic coping mechanisms that helped take the power out of it.  This time, it latched onto something new.  Its something that has always been there, but the depression monster had never taken it on before.  This time my body image came into the path of the depression. As I'm sure this blog can attest to, I haven't been a consistent dieter.  I would be good for a 1-3 weeks then stop for 1-3 weeks.  Rinse repeat forever.  I fell off the health train again and this entire week my depression has been relentless over it.  I've had the following thoughts replaying through my head repeatedly: "You're fat and disgusting.  You look like a fat troll.  You are a fat troll w...