Today I am very frustrated and depressed. I was planning on using my old Bellydancing stuff for a Halloween costume and realized just how much weight I have gained. My back is injured again (can't feel my left foot) so I can't run. Just generally depressed.
Being an adult is hard. I find that most days I feel unsatisfied with my life. I often think back to being in my early twenties and romanticize the time. Logically I know I was horribly depressed through most of it, but I still find myself longing for the days. I have a good life now, but sometimes its hard to see because I get so bogged down in the day-to-day. Partially that is because I have let what is important slip away for what is easy. I miss the how busy I stayed. I miss how social I was. At one point when I was therapy, I created a life goal plan. I'm not sure if that is the actual name of it. Basically, I listed things that were important and why they were important and then I listed how I would achieve those things on a daily, weekly, and monthly basis. I may find that useful to do again, but that is not what I am doing today. Most days I come home and immediately turn on the tv. I watch a few hours of TV a...
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